what is wrong with me?
Hi people!
its a monday morning! heh, and guess what, i've got the bloody mondy morning blues. was feeling rather lethargic this morning and was wishing that it friday. i am so screwed! been wanting to go for a holiday badly but i can't! two reason:-
i want to go for an island holiday but obviously i can't since the east coast is closed for monsoon. west coast islands just can't compare to the east coast islands. i want to go to perhentian kecil and just bum it out. just for the weekend!
i can't spare my leave cause i will already be taking four days early december for my paintball tourney!
anyways, had the normal paintballing weekend. saturday training and sunday training. what else is new right? well, nothing actually. maybe except that the team finally got its act together yesterday and managed to win some games. but we are a long long way from our actual form. well, there is still another weekend to go beofre the crunch begins.
and God damn it, i can't type properly, keep hitting the wrong keys and missing them!!!!!
last week, my friend had a birthday party of sorts for his wife, so we hung out at sky bar and ordered some drinks whilst enjoying the view. we coud see genting from up there you know. so yeah, it was a nice clear nite where we had some really good conversation.
we were laughing at jokes, teasing was rampan and the couples were canoodling. man, wish i had a partner!! but i dun! and that is the sad part. almost all my friends have partners and i seem to be the only one without a partner. well, that is not exactly true, there was another girl there and we are rather close, but as friends and no more than that, i guess when two people whom are without partners will become naturally drawn to each other. so there it was, we were hanging out together.
all the rest were trying to encourage me to try to you know, get it on with her as n be an item or something. i all out refused. firstly, there was nothing wrong with her, she was good looking, sexy, talkative, friendly, i liked her character as she was easy going, but i guess the problem was me. i just did not want to commit to anyone. crazy huh..but yes, thats the story of my life. not wanting to commit but at the same time longing for a partner.
to those of you who have known me for donkey years, some of you might be able to guess why and i would most probably say yes to your guess....
what is wrong with me?
its a monday morning! heh, and guess what, i've got the bloody mondy morning blues. was feeling rather lethargic this morning and was wishing that it friday. i am so screwed! been wanting to go for a holiday badly but i can't! two reason:-
i want to go for an island holiday but obviously i can't since the east coast is closed for monsoon. west coast islands just can't compare to the east coast islands. i want to go to perhentian kecil and just bum it out. just for the weekend!
i can't spare my leave cause i will already be taking four days early december for my paintball tourney!
anyways, had the normal paintballing weekend. saturday training and sunday training. what else is new right? well, nothing actually. maybe except that the team finally got its act together yesterday and managed to win some games. but we are a long long way from our actual form. well, there is still another weekend to go beofre the crunch begins.
and God damn it, i can't type properly, keep hitting the wrong keys and missing them!!!!!
last week, my friend had a birthday party of sorts for his wife, so we hung out at sky bar and ordered some drinks whilst enjoying the view. we coud see genting from up there you know. so yeah, it was a nice clear nite where we had some really good conversation.
we were laughing at jokes, teasing was rampan and the couples were canoodling. man, wish i had a partner!! but i dun! and that is the sad part. almost all my friends have partners and i seem to be the only one without a partner. well, that is not exactly true, there was another girl there and we are rather close, but as friends and no more than that, i guess when two people whom are without partners will become naturally drawn to each other. so there it was, we were hanging out together.
all the rest were trying to encourage me to try to you know, get it on with her as n be an item or something. i all out refused. firstly, there was nothing wrong with her, she was good looking, sexy, talkative, friendly, i liked her character as she was easy going, but i guess the problem was me. i just did not want to commit to anyone. crazy huh..but yes, thats the story of my life. not wanting to commit but at the same time longing for a partner.
to those of you who have known me for donkey years, some of you might be able to guess why and i would most probably say yes to your guess....
what is wrong with me?
posted by FZM at 11/27/2006 09:26:00 AM
2 Comments:
Bro... there's nothing wrong with u... it's perfectly normal to want what u can't have... yet... hehehehhe... just hang in there... who knows maybe one day she might just realise she made a huge mistake in letting u go or leaving u whichever that happened... in the mean time I'm sure u're not just sitting on your ass and waiting for her to come back... just chill and show her what she has given up for... be a better man... sometimes u gotta let the one that u love go and if they come back then u know u're meant to be together... all I can say is chill bro... life's too short to think bout all the coulda woulda shoulda in life... u're better than that and u don't have to validate yourself through another person's life... every individual is an island and can be an island... u do not need a significant other to live life... so stop seeking something that isn't there and move on... which is easier said than done of course... hehehehehehe
You're perfectly normal. Trust me. human wants companion, that's human nature.
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