family and friends

Hello,

I received a comment about my previous posting thru the email recently and this person stated that i was very the perasan. I replied back very emotionally which is very unlike me, but to a certain extent, i guess i was deeply hurt by the comment.

I emailed the person again today apologising and i guess from now on, i have a lesson to learn, that is to stop perasaning and blowing my own horn. Let people judge me and my character and i have to be humble of whom and what i am. Its hard but i guess its for the better. Thank you.

I am a complex person and i will be the first to admit it. I'm a walking contradiction especially when it comes to my own personal life, which i lead with no direction whatsoever and basically just bulldoze myself thru whatever barrier there is.

Thank God i dun have the same problem with my working life. I know what i want and what i want to achieve and this can best be deciphered to my choice of staying with my current company rather than move away and exploring new things. My sole aim and goal in my working life is to earn as much money possible for my own use and my future family, if any that is! I do not seek an ovasion when i do something great, i dun expect a pat on the back if i were to stay in late at work but i do expect to be remunerated as to the work that i have done. I think that is what we all expect from our employers.

As for my family, I am extremely close to my mum and my second sis. My second sis is like my love doctor or confidante!! she knows almost all the juicy tit bits and basically she will definitely have a say as to whom i will be getting married to!! hehehh...I know i know, its my own life and i have to decide whom i want to get married to, but this won't stop me from listening to my sisters opinion. She knows me well enuff to know what i am looking for. As for my mum, mummy dearest has been there for me thru all my relationships and so far, she has managed to get on pretty well with whomever i bring home!!! hehe...Love you mum and i hope you get well soon.

My friends, i have different circle of friends, i have my college friends, i have my office friends and i have my paintball buddies. Different groups of people with very different characteristics. My college friends are those whom have known me the longest and a group which i am most comfortable with, they have seen me thru my lowest and highest points and we are like siblings to a certain extent, initially starting with myself and three other male buddies, tis has grown to include their wives and girlfriends and other people whom have managed to gel with the group.

My office friends...hmm...well, acquaintances more like it, but there are a few whom i consider as very close friends whom i share my working woes and to a certain extent, my personal life too....

My paintball buddies are the people whom i am most crazy with!!!! we play hard, we live fast and we party like mad!! tantrums have been thrown, four letter words aplenty, but we stick together thru thick and thin for the love of paintball.

And there is a special group i have which does not come into any of the above groups...these people are people whom i have met either thru the internet or friend of friends. Some of which i have met and some of which, i have not, heheh...i know i know, how can i be close to people whom i have never met...no idea actually, but i am definitely enamoured by these person(s)!

Well people, these are the lovely people whom i have in my life and that has managed to make my life that slightly less miserable, well a lot less actually!!!