Monday, August 14, 2006

Mawi

Hello...
I know i know...weird topic, but i can't help it...i am totally in awe of him, such a performer, such an angelic voice!!NOT!!!!!!!!! bleurgh!
The guy is not the least bit good looking, he can only sing one kind of music and he can' dance. God knows what else he can't do. I am somewhat intrigued at how he can gather so much support! i mean its amazing, we have seen zahid and vince, both i think have more talent than him, well, at least vince does and this was proven when he brought different types of songs and he was creative, he did not stick to the original songs, he made it his own..unlike mawi...even his english is horrible.
Actually i'm not sure what to write about this guy, but i felt i have to. I think the overwhelming support for this guy is just ridiculous. There are so many other performers which i think is so much better than him and i sincerely do not think he deserves all the hype that has been given to him. Its totally insane...let him go thru malaysian idol and see how he fares, i can bet you he won't even make it thru the prelims...
Why people why? why do you worship him so much, he is only human and furthermore, he is not all that great a performer, certainly not good enuff a performer to receive all the adulation that he has received.
He has been banging on his aduhai salihah for ages and ages and his collaborations with jamal and m nasir...for me, he does not even belong on the same stage as this two great maestros..
Can't we the malaysian people wake up and not be blinded by his somewhat mediocre performances....enuff grovelling enuff giving him presents..leave him alone and see how he fares...

Friday, August 11, 2006

cloudy friday morning

hello...

its a cloudy and thus gloomy friday morning. what a way to end a week. got caught in traffic. i was not freaing moving for about 15 minutes. was basically stationary. luckily i had some form of entertainment. i had this mat salleh guy looking all irate and gesturing all types of obcenities. Heheh...so i wound down my window and asked him whats the matter...was he late for an appointment, so he said rather comically that he had to go pee!!!! hahahah...you should have seen the guys face, he had a bushy moustache and beard with a wisp of curly hair....and how he contorted his face was funny....i guess i would be looking like that if i had to control my bladder for a long time....heheh....anyways, that made my morning.....
got to work late...damn it, i've been late too many times this week, luckily i found out my boss was later than me...so phew.....
neways, as i was smoking at the stairwell, i kinda found myself thinking of some sad things.....i dunno...the weather i guess.....well....my mum is not feeling very well at the moment and i was imagining all sorts of things....i shouldn't be, but damn it, the weather!!!!...neways, i know my mum wants me to get married soon....very soon, she keeps saying that her son is already getting old and shud be finding someone to settle down with...you know the drill....get married, have kids and live happily ever after.....and i have upset my mum countless of times by reiterating that i'm not ready yet or i have not found the right one.....we would get into fight and arguments and my mum would bermasam muka and stuff like that.....i knw she is right and i know i am wrong...but what can i do...somehow or rather, i just seem to not want to make any effort into settling down.....i pity my mum sometimes...well...all the time actually....she must be thinking what in the world is happening to her son...i guess she got so worried that she actually asked me whether i was gay last weekend!!! heheh....which i replied that i am not and i am straight...kinda funny when your own mum asks you that......neways, a day after that, we went for a wedding and you know how i hate weddings, all the aunties and uncles and cousins will start asking the QUESTION!!! but someone said something which made my mum worry even more, this cousin of mine...she told my mum that i wear colourful and loud colours at work...this cousin of mine works in the same office by the way...she said i looked kinda gayish, but my cousin said i looked only and that i dun behave like one.....so this got my mum even more upset...so much so that i got a long talk about being gay and her views of it and that i shud get married yadda yadda yadda.....
heheh.....for everyone's knowledge..i am not gay and i do not have any wish to have anything stuck up my ass!!!!! or in my mouth!!!!!! i am perfectly straight.....
man...how did i get into this insane topic anyways........

Saturday, August 05, 2006

family and friends

Hello,

I received a comment about my previous posting thru the email recently and this person stated that i was very the perasan. I replied back very emotionally which is very unlike me, but to a certain extent, i guess i was deeply hurt by the comment.

I emailed the person again today apologising and i guess from now on, i have a lesson to learn, that is to stop perasaning and blowing my own horn. Let people judge me and my character and i have to be humble of whom and what i am. Its hard but i guess its for the better. Thank you.

I am a complex person and i will be the first to admit it. I'm a walking contradiction especially when it comes to my own personal life, which i lead with no direction whatsoever and basically just bulldoze myself thru whatever barrier there is.

Thank God i dun have the same problem with my working life. I know what i want and what i want to achieve and this can best be deciphered to my choice of staying with my current company rather than move away and exploring new things. My sole aim and goal in my working life is to earn as much money possible for my own use and my future family, if any that is! I do not seek an ovasion when i do something great, i dun expect a pat on the back if i were to stay in late at work but i do expect to be remunerated as to the work that i have done. I think that is what we all expect from our employers.

As for my family, I am extremely close to my mum and my second sis. My second sis is like my love doctor or confidante!! she knows almost all the juicy tit bits and basically she will definitely have a say as to whom i will be getting married to!! hehehh...I know i know, its my own life and i have to decide whom i want to get married to, but this won't stop me from listening to my sisters opinion. She knows me well enuff to know what i am looking for. As for my mum, mummy dearest has been there for me thru all my relationships and so far, she has managed to get on pretty well with whomever i bring home!!! hehe...Love you mum and i hope you get well soon.

My friends, i have different circle of friends, i have my college friends, i have my office friends and i have my paintball buddies. Different groups of people with very different characteristics. My college friends are those whom have known me the longest and a group which i am most comfortable with, they have seen me thru my lowest and highest points and we are like siblings to a certain extent, initially starting with myself and three other male buddies, tis has grown to include their wives and girlfriends and other people whom have managed to gel with the group.

My office friends...hmm...well, acquaintances more like it, but there are a few whom i consider as very close friends whom i share my working woes and to a certain extent, my personal life too....

My paintball buddies are the people whom i am most crazy with!!!! we play hard, we live fast and we party like mad!! tantrums have been thrown, four letter words aplenty, but we stick together thru thick and thin for the love of paintball.

And there is a special group i have which does not come into any of the above groups...these people are people whom i have met either thru the internet or friend of friends. Some of which i have met and some of which, i have not, heheh...i know i know, how can i be close to people whom i have never met...no idea actually, but i am definitely enamoured by these person(s)!

Well people, these are the lovely people whom i have in my life and that has managed to make my life that slightly less miserable, well a lot less actually!!!

Thursday, August 03, 2006

long lost friend

Hello..

I received a call last nite from a long lost friend. She is now working with a bank at jln ampang. I think its been ages since we last talked on the phone. I remembered the last time i was talking to her, i thought my ex colleague was trying to ask her out. I foundout last nite he was after her friend.
Anyways, we started talking and talking and i asked her, why has she remained single all this while? i have to add here that she is rather tall and she is i have to admit, quite good looking as she was an ex model turned banker. I know for a fact that she has been rather fussy and as a such been involved in a few messy break ups.
I also have to add we were quite close to an extent some of our friends thought we were going out together as a couple, we were close but never got beyond that because of certain issues which could never ever be solved unless she was willing to sacrifice a lot.
So she told me one of her reasons was that no guy had appealed yet. anyways, we will be meeting up for drinks soon, how soon, next week soon, i wanna catch up with her and get all the latest gossips!

byeeee