Health! Mine!

Bonjour! hah!

Its been quite awhile since i last blogged. Well, nothing interesting has been happening thats why or maybe i didn't have the time. whatever it is, i finally managed to find some time today.

I had a medical check up recently over at a hospital that i think, if my memory serves me right, at a private hispotal owned by a singaporean corporation. you know what, previously, this hospital was a private hospital and i expected that there would definitely be some improvements after the buying, but alas, everything seems the same. Well, maybe the nurses clothes and stationary and the logos have changed, but everything else remains the same. Dilapidated looking halls, leaking toilets, faded curtains..well, you get the drift. Anyways, luckily, the service still remains top notch. The same people who served there all these years are still there, my nurse, Ms Kudva is still her cheerful talkative self, my doctor, Mr. Zach is still his solemn self. Thankfully, afterall these years, they, the personnel have not changed!

Anyways, registered myself, had a urine test, then had blood taken, then a x-ray then waited for about 20 minutes for the doctor. Well....to cut things short, results came back, it was good, as expected. The only blemish in a somewhat suprising healthy looking Feizal was that i had high cholestrol. Mind you, i kinda expected this. With all the eating i done. I've always had this thinking, I'm not going to diet and i'm not going to watch what i eat. I'm just going to wallop whatever comes to my plate. And true enough, I've got high cholestrol. Damn it.

The doc said for my age, i shouldnt have such a high cholestrol level and he asked me what do i eat. I told him i ate about anything i wanted, at whatever amount i wanted and whenever i wanted. So there it is, the cause of my cholestrol. Just to give you an idea of how serious it is, the doc has put me on a 3 month diet. not strict diet, but something which i've got to devised myself. If in 3 months my cholestrol is has not gone down to a level which he is satisfied, i'm forced to take medication! its that bad!

Anyways, Its been 4 days since the check up and sadly, i've not managed to follow the diet regime i've planned. I've even enlist the help of a friend to help me watch my diet and she has been nagging me! heh..Thank you! i need it. Right this very moment, the only successful thing which i have managed to control is my drinks. I've stopped taking carbonated drinks altogether and begun to drink more plain water to help flush out the toxins. everything else is in a mess!

anyhow, whoever has been living a life of indulgence all this while, i suggest, you either go for a medical or do things in moderation. or it might be too late and you become like me.

About me!

Hi people..

What is there to tell about a person, i guess the norm would be hobbies, likes and dislikes, physical attributes and stuff like that..

Hahah..should i use that to tell about myself? i'm sure that a few of you would like to know these kinda stuff, well, i'm sorry to dissapoint you but i'm going to do it in a different way. Well, maybe i'll just use it to satisfy some of you, especially to those of you who have not met me yet. This is not a angkat bakul session or anything like that...this is just me describing me?! weird ain't it.

Well, where do i start..I'm a 30 year old malay guy born and bred in KL. I'm about 5'7 and a half i think, tho i think i look shorter due to my ever increasing weight problems. If you must know, i'm about 72kgs now. well, it does not sit pretty of my body. I've definitely got a tummy, which i have been bringing around like a baby since i was in college! Its been upteen years, but somehow or rather, my tummy is still there..damnit! I'm definitely not handsome nor do i look like any superstar with some hot body. I can't sing nor can i dance, in fact, any movement which involves some grace and poetry, i suck at it.

I'm working obviously, or how would i have been able to maintain my tummy! i work in a company in jalan sultan ismail where i do some legal work, mind you, i'm not any good at it, was thinking that i would have been some great corporate advisor, but nope, i'm just a low rung employee trying to make ends meet, rather unsuccessfully i might add.....

I dun have a love life, i've been single for the last 2 years! this is the longest ever spell in which i have been single, believe it or not! its not that i have not been going out with the opposite sex, i have, trust me i have, but somehow or rather, no one has yet to grab my attention. or maybe, i'm still pretty much hung up about my ex. God knows whylah, she is most probably having a good time with her current beau...

I'm pretty much into sports, well, not exactly sports per se, but more into sporting activities, currently, i'm involved in paintball in a big way. Every weekend i'll be going for training with my team. I've also been meaning to try white water rafting and sky diving, but somehow or rather, i've not been able to!

I'm also into theater, not acting or anything with talent, i just love to watch theater. Love watching stand up comedies, or dramas and musicals. My last theater was harith iskandar over at actors bangsar and my very first one was the sound of music in shah alam...

I think myself as not a complex human being but more of a confused bastard. I do now know what i want in life, i'm just trying to live one day at a time, not doing a good job at it. Sometimes i want to be this suave guy with a charming personality, some other times i just want to be some scruffy guy who just does not care about anything at all.

There have been times when i would dress up in my scruffiest jeans and worn tee shirt and walk around chow kit or central market, looking like some lost idiot who does not have any education of any sort..then at nite, i'd be dressed in a full baju melayu complete with songket and songkok, clean shaven and nice smelling and behaving like the perfect gentleman. go figure...

With my frens, usually i'm the quietest, nary a word will come from my lips, i will just smile and laugh and listen to their stories. Its easier that way for me. I'm not much of a talker when it comes in a group, i normally feel more at ease when its in a smaller group. Even with my family i dun talk much, prefer to just be in my room and watch tv or sleep. But at work, i'm normally the emcee when it comes to public events..its two sides of a coin...

complex metrosexual or confused bastard....confused arrogant son of a bitch would be the better description.

Weddings!

Hi everyone,

It was an interesting weekend for me. Attended a wedding on sat nite, it was a cousins wedding that was held in a hall in cheras. And mind you, i'm shite in cheras, couldn't find my way round at all and got lost a couple of times, but we still managed to get there on time. Phew, or i would have gotten a right rollocking from my parents.

Neways, as usual, the cousins will sit together, the aunts and uncles will sit together and so on and so forth. The normal banter will start, everyone catching up on what has been happening, gossips...you know the normal stuff.

Well, i was seated at a table with my two sisters and some other cousins, Kak S and Kak L. Both of which i am close. Both are also married with kids, TWINS!! Both Kak S and Kak L has a set each!! heh...at another table was Kak N. Also another cousin whom i am close to. Kak N is the eldest amongst us cousins.

Well, as usual, the topic of marriages came up and not suprisingly, my topic came up and they started fussing about it. This cousin asking this and that cousin asking that, but basically, they were wondering when was it my turn. I said, well, as for now, i'm pretty much single and having a blast so i'm not actively looking for anyone to occupy my time. Then they started asking whether Kak N's daughter had any good looking friends who are single, they wanted to match mate me!! God....its not that i dun want to find a girlfriend, i'm just not looking for any, and anyways, i dun think anyone would actually want me....so its mutual!! heh..in a sick kinda way..

Then Kak L asked me about my sex life? out of the blue ok, i was stunned? i mean what the hell? heh..i was non plussed and started to re-enact how a fish looked like!! heheh...mouth open and shut trying to think of an intelligent retort, but alas, i could only manage a smile...and for those who you who might be wondering, i'm still not going to answer..i'll leave it to your fertile imaginations!

Anyways, the thing is, why is it that everytime there is a wedding, everyone starts asking the bachelor and bachelorettes when will it be their time. i mean hello....some of us just don't intend to get married and then some of us are just not priveledge enuff to find a partner whom we want to spend our lives with. I mean, initially when i was with A, i wanted to marry her, we were even discussing about our engagement...but it never panned out obviously....but now that i've been single for almost 2 years, i'm pretty much ok with my current situation.

It really gets me(not upset or anything, just irritated thats all) when people ask me when i'm going to get married, dah ader girlfriend ker belum, can i match-mate you, i've got a friend whom would be perfect for you, can i arrange a soiree( is this the right usage?)...what the heck!!! Because of this kinda questions, i'm kinda put off marriages, attending them i mean, unless its a really close relative or friend, then i wouldn't mind going....

AARRGGHH!!

Looks vs. Character

Hi everyone!

Happy Chinese New Year and Awal Muharam to everyone. It was a nice long holiday for most of us. I hope everyone got back home safely and kudos to those who adhered to the speed limit on the highways. As usual, the holiday hiatus caused massive traffic along the roads leading up north and down south..but the roads in KL were clear!

I've been reading a blog recently, by a lady friend of mine, well, not exactly a friend, but more of an acquaintance actually, hope to a be a friend soon...about the above topic, she had some very interesting views on it and knowing me, i have my own opinions on things...

Well, as with most guys, i do go for looks, this i have to admit cause i'd be lying thru my teeth if i said i didn't! and yes, call me a chauvinist pig..I'd love someone with nice hair, good features, cleavage, nice ass and long legs...a claire forlani(meet joe black heroine) lookalike or maybe a sienna miller kinda girl, i'm sure you get my drift. I mean which testosterone filled guy wouldn't want to be seen next to one of these lovely creations of God, i know i do and i admit it.

But! yes there is a but, i want more than just looks, i need someone with personality and character to match. I need someone whom i can have an intelligent conversation with, talk stuff like politics, life maybe even sports, who knows, i dun want someone who just knows the new in colour for lipstick or the new handbag designs by gucci and prada..someone whom would keep me amused by her intelligence, rants, brickbats and opinions on things and not just rely on her physical attributes to keep me amused, altho it will for a period of time i admit! i'm a guy for God's sake!

I admit i'm not a gorgeous catwalk hunk with a six peck for a tummy, i'm just a normal guy who walks in shopping malls with a tummy and a silly grin on my face. I know i wouldn't be able to pull girls like flies with my looks nor would i be able to pull girls with my brains...I'm just a simple guy who knows or at least thinks he knows what he wants from a girl. I'm not looking for some gorgeous babe who is good in bed, i'm satisfied if she is plain ordinary looking or just pleasing to look at, but the more important thing for me is her personality and character. I mean looks will go off once you reach a certain age, things start sagging, wrinkles all over and cellulite might make an appearance too!! no operations involved of course! but what stays with you the rest of your life is your personality and character. i dun think my sexual appetite/libido will still be there once i'm 65 ok!!! altho i do hope for it!!!I just want someone whom i can still have a healthy conversation with, not bitchy all the time, some of the time is ok..basically someone whom i'm comfortable with in my old age so i won't die of boredom first!

Am i asking for too much? Am i asking for the perfect girl? Is it wrong for me to want something? Is it wrong for me to dream of getting someone like how i described, i think not. The catch or precaution is always that you have to keep an open mind about these things. You cannot expect a claire forlani with the brains of a NASA scientist, altho there are a few like that!! You have to look at yourself truthfully and think, who will be attracted to a guy like you? then you can scale down your expectations and hope for the best.