Friday, September 29, 2006

Radio, TV and the like

Hello.

Was listening to Mix FM this morning, not my normal channel mind you, but Adam C was kinda boring, he just didn't have it in him like rudy and jj. By the way, has anyone been listening to Hitz.FM these last couple of days. Adam seems to keep introducing himself as the hot chic? is that right or do i need to get my ears cleaned? Hot Chic? Erm..Someone please please enlighten me, i dun want to see the guy as being on the "soft" side!

Anyways, as i was listening to Mix, someone very loud and cheerful came on and that was Joanne Kam Poh Poh, bless her, she will come up with the most exotic and funny terms ever. What do you call a female who is a flirt? heh...you call her horizontally accessible!! heheh....or someone who dresses like a slut, she has a wardrobe malfunction... and she goes on and on and saying that we all have got to be politically correct and so on and so forth! She has been the only reason plus that Adam C just doesn't cut it that i tune onto Mix every morning.

Oh yeah, i haven't been watching TV for like ages, i'm more of a DVD goer now! if there is such a thing. My astro bill was up the last couple of weeks, but me being mr procrastinator just ignored the bill and lo and behold, i got my astro cut off, well that was like two weeks ago, and suprisingly, i have been doing pretty well with DVD's! except for missing the liverpool games! can someone share their telly with me!

Was watching tokyo drift last nite and i have to admit, the japanese girls are definitely hotter than the mat salleh girls anytime...those ultra mini short skirts, if you can call them that, to me it looked like a hankerchief wrapped around the girls ass, the itsy teensy tops and the innocent look!

Ok, i have to admit, i think i'd prefer to have an asian rather than a mat salleh girlfriend. but then again, i dun have any qualms either if she was eurasion or mixed with some other mat salled blood. have you seen maya karin or deanna yusof or sarimah...jeez!! hmm..i think i shouldn't be choosylah..mat salleh, melayu, chinese, mix, all are welcomed!

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Aleya or Amani?? oh nevermind!

Hi..

Do you people think i fast/ puasa? because it seems a lot of people, those who have known me for a long time and those who have known me only recently, think that i don't. Some of my office colleagues whom i meet five days a week eight hours a day think i don't fast! The only people so far that i have met who doesn't think that way are my family! thank God, if they think the same way, there must be something seriously wrong somewhere somehow!

Some say they do not think i fast because of my lifestyle, well, actually most of them thinks of it that way, others think because i am kinda westernised, they think i don't, whilst others just say that they guessed i didn't. Weird! Very, What did i ever do for these people to think of me that way? Not that i am actually broadcasting it to the world that i am fasting, but i never thought people doubted that i would fast. Oh well, let them think what they want to think, no worries from me about this, i got other better things to worry about at the moment, like WORK!

Anyways, i managed to last yesterday till buka puasa with whatever little food i had before i went to sleep the night before. I managed to leave the office early for once and somehow or rather, i managed to get to the taman tun pasar ramadhan before 645pm! anyways, as i walked along the rows and rows of stals selling an embarrassing assortment of food and water, they had nasi tomato, nasi beriyani, mee goreng, meehoon goreng, ayam goreng, popia, soup, roti john and God knows what else. But as i reached to the end of the pasar malam, i still haven't decided what i wanted to have for berbuka! Can you imagine that, nothing i saw whilst walking from one end to another actually tickled my fancy!

So in the end, as it was so near to berbuka already, i just bought nasi tomato with ayam masak merah and a few samosas and crysanthemum tea to drink. I bought this cause i was at my wits end trying to figure out what i wanted to eat. I bought these cause i was just lazy to rack my brains. I guess i was still hung up about steaming white rice, with telur goreng and kicap with cili!!! yummy!!!

Anyways, i think i bumped into either sharifah aleya or amani on the way back to my car. Yup, she is as cute outside as she is in the movies. She was wearing glasses and faded blue jeans with a horizontally striped baby tee. nice! I have to add her onto my list of malaysian female artist whom i want to get jiggy with it!! heheh...i already have deanna yusof, maya karin and sarimah on that list, now i can add her onto it....but then again, i dun think solah...she is too different and i can't imagine wanting toget all cozy with her. Looks like my list will remain just those three!

wink wink!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Thirty this year

Hello

Been reading some blogs when i reached the office this morning, and mostly were about glorious food, from ayam percik, telur goreng, ikan keli lemak, and after reading all that, i'm starting to get hungry and its only 930am!

Speaking of food, i had chicken porridge yesterday for berbuka. it was the chicken porridge at uncle lim's in subang parade and it was good! It had thick slivers of chicken, egg, fried tofu and a few other garnishings which i can't recall. I also had this lovely roti bakar which was spread with butter and kaya!!! yum! One thing about me is that i dun do sahur, so what i normally do is have a heavy berbuka and something else before i go to sleep, last nite i had 3 oreos! heheh... i know its not much, but i just wanna see whether i can "tahan" till berbuka.

Anyways, i'm turning 30 this year, the number 2 in front will be replaced with a 3 this year. I dun quite care much about getting older but this year is different, i'm turning 30! somehow 30 seems a lot older than 29 you know. But lets not get overdramatic about this, heh...i alone being dramatic is bad enough!

Anyways, after getting my degree i set out certain milestones which i must achieve when i reach a certain age, the first milemark would be when i turn thirty, and i can you tell straight off that i have failed to achieve three things on my list, not that the list is extensive, but its still a list...first off is i'm still not married, and the worse bit, i dun even have a girlfriend. I would have always thought i'd get married before i reach 30, now that i am reaching it, i dunno when i'll get married if ever.....

second on that list would be to have at least 1 kid, but since i'm not even married, obviously i cannot achieve this particular milestone.

and the third on my list would be earning a certain figure which i have to say, i am a looong way off to earning that particular amount. i'm just a glorified paper pusher, thats why i can't earn that much so this sucks! I got other stuff in the list, but the rest i've already kinda met it a while back, its just these three things which i have notyet managed to achieve.

Anyways, the next milestone is in the next five years, when i turn 35, i hope by then, whatever milestones that i have set for when i turn 30 and for when i turn 35 will be met, if not, i would seriously think of giving my life up as a glorious paper pusher and be something else which does not demand so much effort and grey matter!

Monday, September 25, 2006

Puasa month

Hello all,

Second day of Fasting, so far so good i think. Yesterday was a breeze as i woke up late and had things to do which occupied me the whole day. But today, its a whole fidderent ball game.

I am here sitting at my desk in front of my PC and i just can't seem to concentrate on the task at hand. I have been looking at this particular agreement since morning and i just cannot seem to finish it. I have been walking in and out of the office the whole morning, wandering about, licking my lips and clasping and unclasping my hands. until a colleague told me i've got withdrawal symptoms! What? nicotine withdrawal she said. I was like jeez, why didn't i think of that? but yes, i think i do have the symptoms and its been making me restless the whole morning.

If i could just smoke a cigarette, inhale deeply on the stick, letting the nicotine seep in slowly and enjoying the taste of it. and slowly letting the smoke out. Goose bumps man!

If we have such a thing as a buku 555 on pros and cons during puasa month, i'd be screwed! think of all the red marks, the smoking thoughts, the notty thoughts when looking at girls, the food thoughts during lunch and all other thoughts which i dare not expose here.

I know as we proceed thru the fasting month, the cravings will slowly fade away and it won't be so tough, but trust me, these next couple of days is going to be tough as hell, especially during office hours when i need to smoke to keep sane and coffee to keep awake.

Anyways, Liverpool won three zip. Lets hope reina and the rest of the defenders can keep their cleen sheets going for the next couple of games. ManU drew to Reading. Heh..nuff' said!

Thursday, September 21, 2006

I need a break!

Been working non-stop for the last couple of weeks, coming in on weekends and going back at around nine almost everyday. this is not a life i had expected to lead when i started working. Not to say that i am not used to it, but after having to go thru it, it no laughing matter ok.
I literally had to drag myself, stumbling thru the car park to my car. i actually had to sit in the car for a couple of minutes to get myself oriented. the workload has been never-ending, the meetings and discussion are one on top of another. the only respite i ever had over the last couple of weeks was the bangkok trip late august for a tournament, even then it was fly in and fly out.
been talking to some friends and bloggers about white sandy beaches, crytal clear water and blue skies, i'm talking about a holiday by the beach!
one of my friends whom i had recently offended big time just came back from perhentian for the weekend and from her relaxed state before my big boo boo, it was a blissful weekend. she is planning to island hop sometime end of this year in thailand! although i would strongly suggest her not to due to the recent coup de etat!
another planned to go for a shopping spree in bangkok but she decided otherwise due to recent developements and instead hop on a planeto the white beaches of bali.
another blogger just came back from bali and she posted some really nice pics of her doing her yoga exercises on the beach.
i need to go for a holiday but i need to go for a cheap holiday not to those expensive places or where there are tourists or people, i just need to find a quiet faraway tuicked away and do my own thing. at this very moment, the thought of going to perhentian, my first choice is out because of the oncoming monsoon season and also, puasa is just around the corner, so any notion of a holiday has gone up in smoke. after raya is neigh impossible is i will be having training session for paintbal for the world cup in december. so the earliest i could actually go for a relaxing holiday would be in december. even then i have to make sure i have enough leave left!
damn it!

Monday, September 18, 2006

Mat Rempit and A.R

Hello.

I cannot help but give my two bits on these mat rempit people. I have actually seen the movie and honestly, it was not worth the ten ringgit i paid. The only thing that was worth watching were the bedroom scenes. Not as steamy but still something to watch considering the actors were malays.
Back to the movie, liked the radical stunt scenes, liked the racing scenes but that was it and for me, the movie somehow or rather seemed to depict that these mat rempits were cool. The movie had failed to convey the message that these mat rempits were actually an eye sore and were a nuisance to public. They should have a message at the end of the movie to discourage youths from being or idolising these rempits.
I seriously do not see how and why some girls would want to give up their bodies for the pleasure of these mat rempits. is it something so noteworthy to give your body to these rempits and later brag/talk to other girls that you actually allowed some rempit who won in some street race to hump your pussy? if this is such the case, i fear what society is coming to.
for the rempits? what is it that you rempits achieve out of illegal racing accept for bragging rights, a bit of money and the pussy of a girl who has been a trophy or cum dumpster for many other rempits. is all these worth sacrifing your lives, limbs and the tears and heartache of your families? Jeez people, your parents did not bring you up to throw your lives away on some street. ifyou really want to race, do it in a regulated manner where all the necessary safety precautions have been prepared. Haiyoh!!! people, pleaselah value your lives for God's sake!

on a more sombre mood, i have recently caused a very close friend of mine (AR) a lot of hurt by saying some stuffs which i shouldn't have. AR is a girl whom i have known for many years and only recently we have become quite close. We woud normally meet up for dinner and drinks and enjoy each others company and revelling in each other's story. There would be much laughter and a lot of heart to heart sessions. She can be funny and down right serious and then funny again. She is very opinionated and very sassy, plus, she is one bloody hot looking babe. She is AR.
Dear AR, i know this is not the way it should be done but i seriously do not have the guts to call you up and apologise as i am woried that i might say the wrong things again, knowing me, i will. I regret what i said/ messaged the other day (saturday nite) and i knew it was wrong. I think it came out differently from what i actually meant. I am actually jealous of how you lead your life. eventhough i know you have some issues which are rather upsetting, i love the way you manage to handle it and still enjoy yourself. I know you work your ass off at work and you deserve everything that you want to do or have done. I on the other hand, am not able to enjoy the fruits of my labour or enjoy life as how you do as i just dun dare to take things in my own hands and just screw it. wish i had that crefree attitude of yours.
Dear AR, i sincerely hope that what had happened won't jeopardise our friendship as i value you as a person more than you think.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Skivving off from work

its a quarter past 4 in the afternoon and i have absolutely no mood to work, instead i have been indulging myself to this ever so addictive blogging world. Been reading blogs, some interesting some funny some downright hilarious!
i especially like this one blog which has managed to divert my attention for the last 2 hours. this blog is i guess written by some datin who has a lot of time on her hands. but hey, she can write and her stories cover a plethora of expressions, from anger, humility, kindness, mischieviousness and laughter. Her writing skills and her method of expressing her thoughts have kept me captivated for these last couple of hours. Sadly, she has also received some very hideous comments from some very obnoxious and rude bloggers who obviously does not understand that this is the internet and we are allowed to express our thought on any topic and however we so please to express ourselves. As such, i have been deprived of her other scratchings which i know would contain expressions of a wanton mind.
The death of a blogger who has been able to capture my imagination with her colourful writings...i wonder will she her write again...to those bloggers who gave such unnecessary comments to such a wonderful soul...F*£k you..excuse my somewhat crude usage of the english language ladies and gentleman, but i think these kind of bloggers only understand those kind of words.

My bad

Hello...

Its been a pretty hectic couple of weeks for me at work. I mean projects are flying everywhere, even saw a pig flying across the meeting room once!, meetings and discussion almost every other hour and the ever piling daily work which keeps piling up faster than i can say F*%k it! I have been harassed on the phone for agreements and meetings, deadlines are literally DEADlines, been called for this meeting whilst attending another meeting and it goes round and round like a merry go round like the one i saw on holiday last year....with carriages and sleds.
This wek has been particularly bad. Monday was in court, Tuesday had a 7 hour marathon of a meeting and yesterday had a 830 discussion which lasted till noon. THAT was when i found out that 6 documents which were passed to me late friday nite was due by lunch that day and all hell broke loose. Everything was pushed aside and i was frantically vetting thru the 6 documents. THEN at 1250 a coleague of mine called to inquire about some letters that needed to be sent out and that was it baby, mount FZM just blew it and i let out a spew of luckily not obcenities but not so nice words. She was an innocent bystander and i had to vent out my frustrations and anger to her. Jeez, what was i thinking off. Felt bad as hell and later apologised to her for the incident, luckily she understood.
Ok, you guys might think, what the hell am i talking about. Let me give you a rough picture of my situation here in this company. Its a public listed company with 15 or more subsidiaries and sister companies with numerous branches throughout malaysia. We are currently undergoing a few projects at the same time which includes the transformation of this company to another status and expansion plans in the middle east. All this projects are going on at the same time. The shitty bit about all this is that there are only two miserable legal officers handling lock stock and barrel all the legal issues pertaining the projects, subsidiaries and daily work.
I currently have now, on my desk which i might add has not been cleaned fr a few months due to the lack of time, 6 banking agreements, 2 international security agreements, 3 tenancy agreements, 1 IT agreement and i am currently the project owner for the HR Dept expansion plans for our overseas projects. So...WTF is happening right!
Do you think i might be a little stressed out...HELL YES!!!

Monday, September 11, 2006

??!! ideas?



Hello...

I sometimes wonder what i should write about everytime i open my blog and i would normally be amazed by some of the other bloggers on how they managed to update their blog every single day! amazing aint it. I mean i live a normal life like some of the other diligent bloggers, well maybe my life is somewhat more duller, is there such a word as compared to the rest, but i still cannot fathom what to write everythime i open this page....
my weekend was farely normal...i'm not sure what you can call as normal, but for me it was normal....eat sleep and just chill....altho yesterday was rather fulfilling to a certain extent as i managed to hang out at la bodega and eat the scrumptious english breakfast after months of being AWOL. I love the place especially in the late afternoons eating my meal and sipping coffee whilst enjoying a steaming cup of cfee. Just bliss. I have not been able to do that for ages due to my commitments in paintball. Yeah thats me on the top.
Been playing paintball since 2003 and i have been competing in a few tournaments over the last couple of years. The most recent being the Paintball Asia League Series, Thailand Leg which my team came out 5th out of 16 teams from all across asia. The winner was from a team from Iran called Datis. We have this favourite quote "paintball ruined my life!" and this is so true. Financially i am in financial ruins, physically i'm burnt from being in the sun too long and scarred due to the many hits at close range over the years and my voice too has sufferred due to the constant yelling to my team mates....so yeah, it ruined my life. But its like an addiction, i guess you can even categorised it as a sort of S&M kinda thing. you know you will be ruined but you still keep on doing it over and over again. For me its not for the money but for the love of the game, i have been known to playing till near collapse, in fact i did a few times and i have also given away my winners medal a few times. its not the money but the glory.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Grouses

Hello.

Was in Kinokuniya yesterday looking at some stuff. Was trying to decide what to buy to read and finally decided on KLUE magazine and also a book on the Romanovs. I do not know why, but i have always been intrigued by this particular moment in history, you know, the killing of the family, the mystery that one of their children was not killed and bla bla bla.
Anyways, whilst trying to find what to buy at the mag section, i was rather perplexed at how some people can be so inconsiderate by standing in front of the shelves and reading the mags. I mean these people would just stand there and read and couldn't give a damn whether they were blocking everyone else. In particular was this kid whom i think was about 12 years old, he was reading this comis and was standing right smack in the center of the shelves to which i was trying to locate a particular mag. Bloody hell kid, if you wanna read, at least be conscientious enough to move aside when you see that someone is trying to find a mag, No!! this kid just stood there and he looked rather pissed at me coz i was standing over him and looking over his shoulder. Bloody hell, i felt like giving this kid a kick in the butt. Anyways, the mag i wanted wasn't there so i moved on.
I was looking at another section of the magazine stand when this idiot of a guy who smelt like he hadn't had a bath for a week promptly stood in front of me. Here i was, craning my neck over this guys shoulder and trying desperately not to pass out due to the bad body odour! Again the mag i wanted was not there.
My pet grouse here is i wish people would be more considerate and move aside or at the very least be conscious enough to know that you are not the only person trying to read or locate a mag.
After that somewhat stressful moment in kino, i decided to move away and make my move to have a cup of coffee to calm my nerves and have a relaxing read of the book i had just bought. There i was, sitting by the big glass window of coffee bean watching at the people in the park, with a steaming hot cup of joe and a good book to read and minding my own business when this bloody idiot of a person whom i think did not even have an iota of manners or civic mindedness gave this incredibly loud fart. yes you read it right the first time. he farted in public and the smell was...let me put it this way...so bad that i felt as if i was burried in shit! i quickly covered my nose and quickly moved my not so nubile ass out of there! right on cue, the guy stood up and moved away. hello dude! at the very least, have enuff manners and say sorry. but the guy just smiled and got out, i guess he was embarrassed at not being able to control the urge to release noxious gasses in a confined space! anyways, after that i ordered another cup of coffee and i did not want to drink my joe anymore for fear that it might have been contaminated by pollutants from someone elses ass.